Ahhh life, always full of surprises! Loaded with lots of
plot twists, drama, and interesting characters… a veritable Dickens’ novel; fun
to read; not so much fun to live. After
all who really wants to be a starving orphan or caught up in the French Revolution?
But sometimes there you are standing
before the gleaming guillotine with no twin in sight (Tale of Two Cities reference
there for you).
So what do you do when your own life seems to ‘Jump the
Shark?’ (Yes, a Happy Day’s reference
right after a Dickens allusion – deal with it).
You might wonder if this is God nudging you back on your correct ‘plan’ or
are these just the wiles of life raking you over the coals? Which is it?
What do you do? Barring angelic
visitation or a terribly talented tealeaf-reader, you probably will not know
which it is. To this I ask, does it
matter? Should you respond any
differently?
Bringing this closer to home, life has not quite been going
according to plan as of late; some significant deviations between plan and
actual performance. So in the face of
the realization that I had some major deviage from my blueprint, I made some
key decisions and steps for a new plan.
And guess what? Almost
miraculously, things began to line up like Soviets waiting for bread or maybe lining
up more like dominos (since the Soviet Union is gone– Right Putin?). It was perfect. It felt right. God was guiding the way. It was a miracle. All of life’s dominoes were
cued up and all I had to do was push that first domino. Then I could sit back and watch all of my
problems get taken care of. God is great
(but not in the ISIS meaning of the phrase).
So I pushed that first little domino and the reaction started
beautifully. The first domino hit the
second, and the second hit the third.
This was going perfectly. Then it
happened. As the third was just about to
tap that fourth domino, a duck flew out of nowhere, swallowed the fourth domino
which crashed into the stove which started the curtains on fire which then
alerted the fire department who promptly ran over the neighbor’s seeing eye dog
as their truck arrived…. Okay you get
the point. So here is am sitting in a curtainless
fire retardant soaked kitchen given the
Heimlich to a gagging duck while listening to my neighbor wailing over a dead dog
(That was meant to be metaphorical - I really don’t have any curtains in my
kitchen).
Translating the metaphorical to the literal, that fourth
domino was me selling my current house and then buying a very nice smaller
house at a rock bottom price. To make
sure those dominos fell in the correct sequence, I moved 85% of my house into the
garage, put non-refundable earnest money on the house, and had a new
refrigerator and stove (duck proof of course) installed into the house I was
buying. But as life is prone to do and
Murphy’s Law predicts, it all fell apart.
My buyer didn’t get financing at the last minute, bringing this perfect
(yea, even divinely inspired) sequence of domino topplings to a premature end.
And I didn’t understand it.
In fact I still don’t. It seemed like I found the right path. I mean EVERYTHING seemed to line up
absolutely perfectly. It was as if God
moved the obstacles out of my way himself and told me to give that first domino
a push. But only three moves in, it all got
ducked up.
Now I find myself questioning, why did God set this path for
me only to let things fall apart once I put things into motion? Or was it even
part of God’s plan? Or was God’s plan to start me on one path and then suddenly
change direction because He knew I would not push that first domino unless
everything was lined up? Or was this all just good old fashioned bad luck and
nothing more than the chaos of life? Or was
it George W. Bush’s fault? Or… I could
go on and on.
So after banging my head on these questions for a few days,
I finally asked myself DOES IT REALLY MATTER?
Sure the outcome is important, but should my RESPONSE be any
different? If this is simply one of life’s
little catastrophes, wouldn’t I risk failing even more if I said “It’s God’s
will, oh well” and did nothing but sit here waiting for providence to save my bacon?
Or what if God is giving me a chance to learn perseverance? I will not learn it waiting around. And then
what if it is God’s will that I take a different course, I have a feeling if He
was able to course correct me before, He can do it again pretty easily. And like trying to find a door in a dark room,
if I bang my head on enough walls, eventually I will find it if I keep trying.
Then logically (a shout out to Leonard Nimoy), if my
response is the same regardless of what happens (keep trying to fix my life)
then why waste time trying to figure out what caused the trouble in the first
place? In the end, something has to get fixed or changed, and you and I are
just the people to do it. So we need to keep stacking those dominoes, try
different angles, different approaches. Don’t give up and persevere. It is,
after all, your life and my life. And no one should care about it more than us,
which also means that no one should put more effort into improving our lives
than ourselves. Stay calm and carry on.
Hallelujah, now where’s the Tylenol?


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